grieving

Does anyone ever feel like they have to grieve for past lives, or past relationships, not just someone that died?

I feel like that today.

My best friend from high school does not want to be my friend anymore, or thats what it feels like. She says that she has been trying to sort through some things in her life and thats why she has been distant from me. I dont know what that means, but Im feeling like its not good. So I just told her that i dont really believe thats it but im always gonna be here and that i miss her and that whenever she is ready to tell me the truth im a big girl and can take it and will leave her alone until then, and her response was thank you.

so obviously she does not want me to be involved in anything in her life.

i just dont understand what happened.

I mean i get the logistics of what happened with me and my ex and her and her boyfriend.

(she started dating my most recent exs best friend...and then drama was created and nothings been the same, though we had "worked" it out)

after the big blow out though I thought we had worked it out. I had at least said everything that I needed to say.

It just sucks...

I feel like healing from this is gonna take a while...

i miss my her...

So much grieving...

I know that I have to grieve and let it go...just like I have to with the past stuff with kody..

im just tired of it.

I liked my life when it was just happy, when i didnt have to think about kody stuff or kristen or just life in general.



Im feeling a little overwhelmed tonight...