hurrying life along...

I do this a whole lot...

but why do we, as humans, try to hurry life along?

we only have one life...and we never know when its gonna end...

why do we always push for tomorrow...or the next day...or month...or year?

why cant we just be happy with today!

I was talking with my best friend today and all we wanted to be was 21.

Sure it will have its advantages...legally able to drink...get into places we couldnt before...technically be adults (though im more of an adult than some of my over 21 friends) rent a car...

but will we really be any happier then?!?!

what if we were to just enjoy today?

that sure is what i try to do. live my life day to day, and to just enjoy everything that happened today!

im tired of the rush, of the push for more, to be better...to have the best. i just want to be happy!

Cf has taught me that.

With all of my fibros and cyster getting sick, it worries me. And lately ive been freaking out about diabetes lately too...

but why?

none of us know the day or the hour of when we will die...so you have to live your life.

thats why its been bothering me that ive been in a blah mood lately. happy but not fulfilled maybe? just sort of on edge...and i cant figure out why.

i have absolutely no reason to be stressed (besides some minimal financial problems), i have an amazing job, an amazing family, the best of friends, so why am i so stressed??!

Ive even been going to church...

idk...i just dont get it.

i dont want to rush my life...but im tired of living check to check...tired of being lonely...

i feel so much older than 20...

i enjoy my life.

hell i love my life!

maybe i just need to continue to enjoy the little things, and the big things will come??

advice would be appreciated!!!